Monday 19 November 2018

Post op para...





Well I thought I write a short piece about how I am coping after a small operation on my wrist. I have suffered with symptoms of carpal tunnel for about 5 years. Carpal tunnel is a syndrome due to the compression of the median nerve as it travels through the wrist at the carpal tunnel. The main symptoms are pain, numbness and tingling in the middle finger and the thumb. This is a common condition and the major causes are trauma, overuse and pregnancy!! WTF I am defiantly not pregnant. I have been suffering with pain/buzzing sensations that have kept me awake at night for years and since my spinal injury this wheeling around everywhere has totally exacerbated the symptoms and at times brought me to tears as it’s so painful but also so debilitating.

Since my para status I have had pain in my right wrist and my left, but the right hand has been so much worse, to the point that I drop things, when am holding the phone or pen at work I find it so uncomfortable. Well I was initially referred to the CATS team for physio. I saw a great physio and we discussed exercises, which I did and it didn’t really help much, then we discussed having cortisone injections. Well over the last 18 months I have had 4 cortisone injections into my wrist, these injections are given directly into area to help reduce the swelling of the nerve. Symptoms from nerves generally take longer to respond and it would normally take about a week for it to work. They have all worked really well and once the symptoms have gone it feel’s great. But this was only masking the condition and the injection only ever lasted about 12 weeks ish and then the symptoms came back!! After 4 injections the doctors were reluctant to do anymore.

I was then referred to a consultant Mr Amirfeyz, he has been really helpful and discussed all the advantages and disadvantages, to be honest the advantages long term out way the short term discomfort. So through my work I have private medical insurance so we booked a date to go in for the surgery. As you can imagine the surgeon says it’s a 10 minuet operation and you can go home the same day!! Well that was when I started to get some concerns as to how I would manage. In trying to be as organised as I could I set about trying to make my life as easy as possible. I obviously called on my contacts from my District Nursing team where I use to be team leader, so I was able to order a hospital bed to be delivered for uses downstairs as I knew I wouldn’t be able to transfer very well, let alone get up 2 floors in a town house.

So as it’s been nearly 9 months since I started my extension and building work, I still don’t have a downstairs wet room in, the tiles and floor has been done, just waiting for the Plummer to fit the suit now. So sleeping down stairs is a good idea from a transferring point of view but not great from a showering and bathroom point of view. Well I am as ready as I will ever be; I asked the consultant if I could stay in hospital for a rest and recuperation post op, he said go home!! You get less infection risk!! Hahah has he seen my house??? Well I got my date and my right wrist carpal tunnel release was planned for October 8th. I booked 2 weeks off work to recover and it falls well with my holiday also as am off to Cape Verdi for a bit of sunbathing. Hopefully after my recovery and holiday I will be like a new person!!

 

Well on the morning of the 8th I went into the Spire hospital in Bristol, I was first on the afternoon list and when I got in I was met by a great team of staff each wanted to do their job, assess, admit etc.… Mr Amirfeyz came in and I transferred into the bed and he gave me a nerve block into in right hand.. let’s just say ouch that was not comfortable, well after a good hour I had no feeling at all in my hand, this was due to the aesthetic and as I was having the procedure under a local anaesthetic and not a general once I had no feeling I knew it wouldn’t  be long  till I went down. It’s strange being a patient when you’re a nurse as you look at things differently; I was wheeled on my bed into theatre and then transferred onto the operating table, which apparently is heated!! The staff said you’ll feel comfortable and warm; well it always makes me laugh as I can’t actually feel quite a lot.

Once the procedure was started I couldn’t feel pain, but odd sensations, I could hear the diathermy burning and smell scorching flesh!!  Reminds me of my nurse training days, I actually watched a carpal tunnel op in the days of Frenchay hospital. Well the consultant talked to me all the way through telling me what he was doing and true to his word he took less than 10 minutes!! More like 5 minutes.. And having no feeling in my hand I had no pain either. I had a cortisone injection into my left wrist to help with the symptoms and this was numb as well.  Back to the ward I went. I had a sandwich and a cuppa tea on tray with a tea pot and cup and saucer, this is the difference between private and NHS and then I saw a physio who gave me a sheet of paper with exercises on and an appointment for 2 weeks’ time in hand clinic, I saw the pharmacy who brought me loads of pain killers!! I wonder if they know something I don’t for once the nerve block wears off??? . Then I was free to go home. Think I was in there a total of 4 hours!

Well it was only when I tried to get off the bed back into my wheel chair I think then I suddenly realised how hard this was going to be. I managed to flop in to the chair with my PA Janes help and get to the toilet. Once in the loo I had my ISC catheters, and one hand to remove my trousers and use the catheter!! Well let’s just say it took ages... Good job I’ve got 2 weeks off work as it takes that long in the bathroom….. Getting into the passenger seat in the car was entertaining too. I had to use my slide board and like pull in with one arm, the whole thing was extremely difficult. I had realised how hard this would be for me as I have become so independent asking for help is hard. I even hate being pushed in my wheelchair, but needed help as pushing with one hand makes you go round in circles!!. I can’t really do the method of using one hand on both wheels as can’t reach over me with left hand to comfortably get grip on my right wheel. So I will have to have some help.

So with both hands with no feeling and both numb made being an independent para impossible, I was so glad I had ordered a bed for downstairs as the transferring was not easy at all, I went to bed early taking only paracetamol as I didn’t want to bung myself up with codeine.. As managing my bladder and bowels is always my worst fear. Well once the nerve block wore off then the pain was quite bad, if I didn’t move my hand or knock it, it was fine. I suddenly was finding my bladder playing up and started being wet, by waking up in a puddle and not being able to shower or move it was getting quite hard to manage, I carried on trying to manage for a couple of days but the bladder obviously has been upset by the ?? Anaesthetic, or something as so sensitive and can’t transfer to the loo, I have been using catheters kits with a bag attached to minimise the need to transfer, but it was still proving too much.

I made a decision to put a indwelling catheter in. I have passed lots of catheters over my time, but not with one hand and while not being able to move my legs!! Well my skills are still pretty good and I managed with not too much difficulty.  At first I just went free drainage and drank loads to flush out traumatic insertion it wasn’t but flushing out is good. I used a flip flow and night bag while in bed. Straight away this made things easier so I can now concentrate on recovering and resting. Without being wet and having to keep changing, washing and transferring. To be honest I should have put one in straight away, but I was trying to put off needing one. Just to make things easier, well doing bowel care with a left hand is more difficult than it seems.

Getting dressed with one hand, trying to wash and change all the small things I take for granted now, it makes me think how hard it must be for individuals who are tetra-pelagic. Well now each day post op things are getting easier, I haven’t left the house all week, I haven’t brushed my hair, as Stella’s been doing it for me. By Friday I am managing a bit better, getting use to using my left hand and right arm instead of my hand and making a fist to transfer. I went out with my daughter Stella and sister Vicky and niece Jasmine to St Brendon’s college open day on Saturday, This was the first time left the house, Vicky drove my car and we managed to slide me in!! I did struggle a bit trying to push myself around as my daughter does find it hard in public to push me if needed. Had to take some extra paracetamol after today and I had an early night as was pretty shattered again.

It’s quite difficult and I can’t drive yet, I think after the weekend I may find that I will be able to do a bit more, I am doing the hand exercises that the physio gave me. I  have removed the pressure dressing of my wrist now as I was told to do and I will be having the stiches out in another 7 days, I will continue to write a blog of how my week goes and let you know when I have BWO!!!! Hahaha  

Over the last few days I have been able to manage a little better, now I have actually stopped wheeling in a circle as can actually gently push myself now using my right hand. I still can’t put weight on it very well but it is improving and I can now manage a transfer on to the loo.. #goals!!!!! I am well chuffed. I am actually doing as I am told, using my fingers and doing my hand exercises, but I remember the consultant saying the pain could last up to 3 months, I hope this isn’t the case as I am really missing my activities like swimming, the gym and riding. I really want to step it all up and push myself more.

Yayyyy 7 days post op and I managed to transfer myself out of bed this morning into my wheelchair, not gracefully let me add.. But I did it. I am using this quiet time to catch up with all my admin, which actually takes over my life at times. I really like doing my blog as I’ve said before I can be like therapy, looking back how far I have come, not only me but my children, family and friends.

The week is going so fast and I can’t believe it’s nearly 2 weeks since the op. I am now well and truly rested up. I don’t think I’ve spent so long in the house being quiet, resting, reading pottering in the last 3 years. Well I can now transfer independently and have managed to go upstairs on my own for a shower, I have decided to leave my indwelling catheter in as I am due to go on holiday soon, and I always have to put a catheter in for the holiday and flight. As long haul flights I am confined to the seat for a few hours, I will also wear flight socks and a leg bag so I can drink plenty of fluids as not to get dehydrated. But the catheter can sometimes be quite easy when you are away.

I am well into the second week post op now and things are getting so much better, I have been to see the consultant for my post op follow up. I had the stiches removed and the wound is dry and healing well, just need to get some Bio oil apparently this will help the scar and heal the wound by moisturising it. So I have been signed off as the team are really pleased with the progress, I am still wearing a hand bandage so the wound is not exposed as when I push my wheelchair it feels dirty. I need to keep it clean and infection free. Well I am now happier that I can go on holiday and not worry about my hand, also the horrible symptoms that I had for so long have gone now.

I waited a full 2 weeks before I drove the car and only went a short distance, it was difficult getting into the car as I couldn’t push on my right hand but I used the steering wheel to pull myself up into the car, and I use my right hand on the break so I just tried to make sure I was steady and didn’t apply the break to hard, it seemed to go well. Which I am glad as I will be driving to Gatwick in a couple of days!! That’s about 3 hours away. As the days went by things have been gradually improving. Which is great as I am looking forward to a holiday to Cape Verde to celebrate my dad’s 80th birthday?

As the weeks go by post operation the wound is healing well and I am becoming more independent. I have the hand/wound uncovered now and 2 weeks in the sunshine did wonders for my recovery. Now back home and it’s sort of hit the ground running, washing, loads of it!! back to work and driving. I am now getting a bit of pain in my hand and wrist and especially over the new skin on the wound it is very tender.

I find putting my weight on it hard for transferring and it’s defiantly lost a lot of power, it’s very weak. I think now at 6 weeks post op things have got easier but I am still cautious about looking after it. I have enjoyed this small journey explaining how such a small operation can affect my independence so much. I have to go back to see the consultant in December and he is thinking of doing my other hand!! If I’m honest not sure I want it done this soon, but it’s good to get it over and done with its causing me concerns as I want to get back in the saddle as soon as I can but obviously I have to listen to the advice from the medical team as my hands are so important to me. Well onwards and upwards now!!

This para lark is hard going at times!!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

   

 

 

 

Monday 15 October 2018

welcome Air vest to the team


Let me welcome my newest sponsor Air vest to the team
I am so excited to be working with Air vest, ever since my horse riding accident exactly 3 yrs. ago I’ve often wondered what the outcome would have been if I had been wearing an air jacket that day?? I was wearing a Airowear body protector which I had bought from new and had it fitted to me, so I was happy knowing I was wearing a BETA safety standard jacket.  I did actually break 5 ribs as well as my back (vertrabra from T11-L2) but I am sure if I hadn’t been wearing anything it could have been a lot worse having half a tonne land on top of you!! I have also questioned if an air jacket would have been activated in the case of my accident as I actually didn’t leave the saddle. The Horse went up and over backwards and I stayed sat in the saddle and had the full weight on top of me. Most air jackets are designed to activate when the lanyard is pulled away from the saddle. As I didn’t leave mine I question this too???

When I got back into the saddle I got thinking about the importance of protecting the top half of my body, as obviously I didn’t want to end up with another spinal injury higher up if I was to fall off again. I went out straight away and bought an air jacket for my daughter to wear, and I now feel it’s really important to wear even when just hacking or riding at home. Accidents happen when we least expect it, and my daughter Stella is been educated with first-hand experience to the complications of such a horrific life changing injury. Stella wears her body protector all the time when she rides.

I have been doing lots of research and Internet stalking into watching Para riders and different designs of air jackets.  I have noticed when many individuals ride/compete they don’t wear a body protector or air jacket. I have heard people say “they are bulky and uncomfortable” and “feel’s quite restricting”. When I hear people say stupid comments I often roll my eyes and think, I wonder how they would feel if they ended up in hospital for 6-12 months with a life changing injuries and was paralysed from the waist down, with no ability to manage their bladder and bowel and ever walk again!!! No one ever thinks these things are going to happen to them, well I know I didn’t.  

 

So I go back to my work with the leg up for talent program and decide that I only really want to work with sponsors who are going to benefit me, help me and relate to what I am interested in. I have worked with Dolphin Mobility who has supplied 2 hoists one which is fitted to the back of the lorry and one by the arena. Neurokinex are a specialist rehabilitation centre where I go once a week and the benefits of going there are wonderful. The team at Neurokinex have been out to the yard to watch me ride Flynn and in the gym we do exercises that work on strengthen my core and balance specifically for when I’m in the saddle.

Beth Miller BHSII is my 3rd sponsor and has been exceptionally supportive to me over the past 3 years. I have known Beth for about 8 years when she uses to give my daughter lessons and help us out with a youngster pony I bought! We have come a long way over this time and developed a great friendship. Beth owns Super Flynn the Para pony, well he isn’t really a para pony, but he is such a good boy and can turn his hooves to anything. Flynn has helped me gain confidence and got me back in the saddle. I waited till 18 months post injury and it’s been harder than I thought but none of it would have been possible without Beth’s motivation and guidance for which I am really appreciative.


 I have been lucky enough to meet some amazing people through SSIT (southern spinal injuries trust) The SSIT have been supportive in helping fund the second lift for the rider hoist and more recently a bespoke dressage saddle.   They have donated me items which have been life changing for me and they will never understand how much this has helped me with my mental health needs and physical needs which have been life changing for me. I hope they know how much this has helped me cope with my injury. I can’t thank them enough. So I am privileged to be able to work with all these individuals and companies. I see it that they are all part of a para team and working towards my goal and on my journey with me.
Earlier I mentioned that I wanted to work with a company whose products are designed with safety in mind. With the spinal injuries trust being on board I would like all my sponsors to overlap. I would really like to work on awareness and prevention of injury. It would mean the world to me to work with great products that I potentially can advertise as preventing serious injury such as mine. If only a few individuals invest in a Helite air vest and it saves them in an accident scenario that would be amazing.

 When I was a patient in the Salisbury spinal unit I met a lot of young lads who also had horrific spinal injuries from riding motor cross bikes. Motor cross is also classed as an extreme sport, high risk of injury just like riding; many of the young lads who had injuries were not wearing air jacket protection at the time and didn’t wear anything like an air vest. I am a firm believer that my newest sponsor Air vest/Helite can be instrumental in helping equestrian, motor cross sport and motor cycles riders remain safer.  I can’t wait to start my weekly lifestyle posts advertising air vest products as I feel a real passion about helping prevent injury. My 25 year  career in nursing also gives me an interest in prevention rather than cure as it’s always easier to stop something happening than deal with some horrific injuries with major complications.

                                                                                                            
The company supply protective vests and Helite jackets for motor cycle commuters. As a commuter you will be experiencing high volumes of unpredictable traffic on a daily basis.  If you’re commuting In a 3 year period in the UK you are 70% at risk of serious injury. Helite combines style and safety. Air jacket technology works if you fall off the motor bike, the lanyard will pull out the bearing from the trigger mechanism and release the CO2 from your canister into the air vest to fully inflate in 0.094 seconds. The rapid inflation of your vest will straighten your spine and significantly reduce your ability to roll your helmet in a sideways and backwards direction. Your upper torso will be held ridged; it’s during the initial few seconds that the most damage is done. They also have a range of Jackets for touring bikes and motor bike racing.
They have a great range of air vests for the equestrian rider. This is why I love this product. The original air vest is one of Helite’s most popular models due to its versatility. The comfortable lightweight vest is available in a variety of colours including high viz for the safety conscious rider. The vest is designed to slip on over the top of your normal riding wear, and the easy adjustable fasting’s enable you to alter the jacket quickly and ensure a great fit. This vest is CE certified and has a removable back protector providing protection to the neck, spine, pelvis and vital organs, this particular vest is a great all-rounder.
Another equestrian alternative is the Air shell range, these also combine safety, comfort and style. The fabric is windproof, showerproof and the stretch allows for outward expansion. The top outer blouson is frequently used as a standalone show jacket, breaking in youngsters, out hunting, and just generally a great option for everyday use. The particular vest has been approved by British Dressage and British Show jumping for use in the ring as well as British Eventing for use in the show jumping and dressage phases in competitions. This also works well with inter changeable gilet, for a spare or alternative colour. If you need a show jacket they have these also, all able to zip on and off with the air shell range. This style is my favourite as it can be worn when just schooling and everyday riding and doesn’t even look like you’re wearing a bulky air jacket.  

Helite Turtle Wide angle TT comparison


The latest one to be added to the range is the Turtle Equestrian air vest, these new designs have been CE certified and have the back protector placed on the outside of the airbag, and a shock resistant outer material which acts like a turtle shell. It has similar design to a helmet, hard layers on the outside and soft material on the inside. This could come in handy if you were out on the x-country course and had a fall onto any small sharp protruding objects a must for the most safety concise rider.
I am generally so happy to be supported by a company who wants to take safety prevention forward and campaign for air vests to be compulsory in the equestrian competitive field. I am hoping also to help support this company through my lifestyle posts on leg up for talent program and publish awareness through my blog. Please support me by following my post and reading about my para journey.


















Sunday 23 September 2018

SSIT (Southern Spinal Injuries Trust) My Newest sponsor


https://www.ssit.org.uk
 
 
 
 



 So much has happened this summer that it’s hard to know where to start, One thing that I am so excited about it signing up to work with SSIT on the leg up for talent program. Leg up for talent is a social media marketing tool which supports riders to achieve their equestrian dreams, by either finical support or gifts in kind from companies who in return receive a weekly lifestyle post advertising their product or business.  I have been with Leg up for talent just over 12 months now and I am working with 4 other companies, but I have never worked with a charity on the program before. It will be so relevant working with SSIT I can’t wait to support the work they do and help raise money for such an amazing charity.

The first time I came across SSIT was when I was chosen to take part in the Internal spinal games representing Salisbury hospital back in 2016. SSIT sponsored the team kit and we had lovely blue and orange tracksuits to wear!! Someone from SSIT came to talk to us about the great work they do. SSIT’s goal is to assist people with spinal cord injury, enabling independence and quality of life. This can mean anything from funding resources for the spinal centre to funding individual needs in respect of specialist equipment or other assistance. It was nearly 2 years since then that I got involved with SSIT again and since this recent meeting the relationship has snowballed.

It started when I had been thinking of ways I could fund a hoist to be installed in the arena for me to mount Super Flynn the para horse. I already had a hoist on the lorry so didn’t need a whole new system just the arm and the rsj to fix it on. As I had said previously I knew SSIT gave grants to individuals so I phone the charity to ask how I went about applying for a grant. I had to download the application form, fill it in and send a quote for the item I wanted and a supporting letter from my therapist to explain the advantages of the item I required. I did all this and was over the moon when I had a phone call to say my application had been approved and they would fund this piece of equipment.

I had a RSJ donated by my friends husband Tony Bleakman and Beth’s Dad installed this by the arena. The hoist was fitted by dolphin mobility and when we were up and running I took loads of pictures and wrote a thank you note to SSIT saying how grateful I was for their help and generosity. A few weeks went by and I had a phone call from a gentleman called Piers Williams asking to meet me so they could do a story for their website. Of course I agreed as anything I could do to help I would. Piers came to my house with a lady called Victoria Downs who is the fund raising and event manager for SSIT. We had a lovely morning chatting all about the accident, injury and future. They were so lovely and supportive to my para dressage dream.

 Victoria said they were organising a skydive day and would I know anyone who would want to do a sky dive while raising funds for SSIT, well I have quite a few friends who I could ask. So I agreed to support them. My sister and 4 other friends signed up to the challenge and we set about some fund raising ideas. Jane, Hannah and Sue who are all nurses I worked with before my accident and that are very special friends organised a cake sale and raffle and also did a car boot. With hard work they managed to raise over £2000. Vicky is organising a skittle’s night and raffle, and has a fund raising page and is nearly up to £500. I have really enjoyed helping out at these events and it so nice to help give something back. I think in total the sky dive has raised over £10,000 for SSIT. The Sky dive took place this weekend on 15th September at Go skydive. IT was a fantastic set up and every one taking part had a lovely day. The weather was beautiful and I think the sun shines on the righteous. Jumping out of a plane at 10,000 feet and freefalling at 125MPH is something else, so what a fantastic achievement for the girls. Just amazing!!

After meeting up with Piers and Victoria and them offering me help with my para dressage I asked them if they would be interested in the Leg up for talent program, where I could advertise lifestyle post for them in return for their help with the grants they have donated. I think it going to be a fantastic partnership as so apt for me. I have been introduced to some wonderful people who have really supported me. I applied for a grant for a bespoke dressage saddle and am now the proud owner of a lovely one! My saddler Paul Allison from Berkshire who has done work with many Para riders, is helping to adapt my saddle to my specifications and is doing an amazing job by hand stitching it, Paul has made me my dressage whips which I uses to give instruction to Flynn instead of my leg aids and I have some loop reins which have helped massively. He is very knowledgeable and I am really pleased to be working with him.



None of this would have been possible without the support I had from the SSIT charity and I am looking forward to blogging for them weekly about the great work they do! 

wow such a great amount raised by all who were involved in the skydive, over £13,000 and funds still coming in. If you would like to donate you can add any amount small or large to at http://www.mydonate.bt.com search for fundraiser Victoria Totterdell

 

Monday 25 June 2018

My first British para dressage training session!






I’ve been doing well on Flynn with weekly lessons and always keep an eye on the British dressage training clinics that when I saw a date and a venue really close to me I jumped at the opportunity to see if we could coordinate attending. I spoke to Beth and due to the session being para and senior we decided to take Chelsie our youngster out for the day trip as well. Beth would ride Chelsie first and warm Flynn up and then I would ride. As I have mentioned before when I do anything it’s with an entourage!!! This means that Lynn (Beth’s Mum) was asked to drive the lorry, I miss not having my lorry and being able to go places when you want, obviously this injury has stopped that and I sold my 7.5 lorry, due to old persons rights I was able to drive my 7.5t without a test. This is why Beth’s mum Lynn has to drive it as Beth is too young and needs to do her HGV test.

The lorry, Flynn and Chelsie were loaded up in old Sodbury and Lynn drove to the venue at Leyland court about 30-45 mins away from the yard. http://www.leylandcourt.co.uk The venue is about 10 minutes away from my house so it was really good for me, I had to drive myself. So just for today we had my daughter Stella Lynn, Beth Jennie, Rowena, and my Friend Louise came to watch. It takes 6 people to help me safely. Thank goodness I have some very kind and helpful friends. I really appreciate their help as without it I couldn’t ride. To be honest I didn’t realise how big a deal this was, leaving the comfort of the yard, where I am use to everything and where Flynn takes everything in his stride. It was a very steep learning curve.



Beth Rode Chelsie first, we had an instructor Called Nina Venables, She is a coach to the world class development para equestrian dressage squad. She is highly recommended in working with para and senior riders. She was very laid back and once Beth started warming up Chelsie who is 5 and not been out to much Nina wanted the session to be very much directed by you. Obviously Beth knew what she wanted to achieve out of her session, working with Chelsie to develop she straightness and strength also to confirm what Beth does and encourage Chelsie to accept the aids. While we were watching Beth I was getting more and more nervous as it was soon to be my turn. Beth looked amazing riding Chelsie, I haven’t seen her ride Chelsie before, and it’s always very different riding away from home. Leyland court has a new large indoor arena and lots for Chelsie to look at. She was a little star as it’s all new to her. After her session she looked absolutely exhausted, she had tried so hard today. 



Leyland court is a very big equestrian centre and there is lots of activity going on. Once Beth’s session had finished she quickly popped on Flynn to warm him up. Flynn has only ever been in an indoor arena once. So he grew quite a lot!! Well then it was my turn to mount. This was the first time we have used the hoist away from home and it is fantastic that it gives you the opportunity to access other venues and get on. Well we did what we normally do and have my 4 helpers at the ready.(2 leading at the front and 2 side walkers). I positioned myself to be hoisted up and as we were getting sorted the heavens opened and the rain came down, there were people coming in off the cross country course and a horse turning itself inside out neighing continually in a pen!! Well all I can say is what a baptism of fire, if I can do this now I can do anything. Flynn had taken no notice of all this going on and in the meantime I had landed on his back and was being lead into the arena. The rain noise on the roof was so loud and Flynn was walking so fast or it felt fast and he was really taking it all in I actually think I forgot to breath. I was so tense and obviously this was being transferred to Flynn. He must have thought OMG what’s up with the pilot!!! Nina Probably thought what on earth have we here. We slowly managed to gain composure and by talking my breathing seemed to settle and then Flynn started to settle. Nina said just take you time and hold on to the oh crap strap!!

 Both Beth and I wanted to have some guidance to help us realise what we are doing at home is correct, we wanted Nina to tell us, do this, this works, try that?/ that’s what others do!! But instead she said  do what works for you, try new things and see  what develops. By which she obviously means, there is no right or wrong in para riding, I am a grade 2 so will be expected to walk and trot. Flynn and I have to create a strong bond/partnership and we will develop together, Flynn will learn to trust me and understand my aids and I will learn to trust him. This is going to be a mammoth journey.

 All of a sudden I felt reality kick in. seeing this journey starting to unfold. It is so much harder than I ever thought it would be. Flynn had started to relax and I was starting to enjoy the session. Then Nina said did I want to trot!! Is she mad?? I was just about managing to balance in the walk. I think I had lost confidence when I had fallen off and due to one thing and another I actually hadn’t ridden Flynn for about 4 weeks so trotting I don’t think so!!! Hahahha  I know we have to bite the bullet at some point. I can’t imagine how other para riders do it. But today was not the day!!

I asked Nina about a specialised saddle, leg straps, Velcro and knee rolls on the saddle, I think it does depend on what you have on your classification card, so whatever you ride with at home you need to ensure its on your classification card for when you compete or you may find you turn up to a competition and can’t use your aids, so we need to make a conscious effort to look into this, I need to find a saddle company to sponsor me a new deep saddle and we need to get the confidence to try the trot!!



Today was a huge step, I actually cried as the emotional energy that it took for me to achieve this really took it out of me today, it was huge, this was my first ride away from home, Flynn was an absolute star and I was a wreck!! We need to practice going away from home more often, but I am aware that the whole team have to help and that’s huge! People have to give up their time voluntary and this is a big ask.  I feel really helpless at times, that I just have to rock up and get on and the amount of work that goes on behind the scenes to make this happen is phenomenal. I have the best support from the lone oak para team it so amazing. Can’t wait for our next outing and next time I  will know what to expect. 





Sunday 24 June 2018

Latest news from last couple of months





Since I last blogged quite a lot has been happening with my personal circumstances. Well I have finally commenced my big build at home. The builders have been her 8 weeks now and the drilling noise has become the norm.. From 8am all I hear is disk cutters/diggers and the sound of the kettle being put on to make tea!!!

All joking a side it is going well, actually I am out of the ground now with the ground works to the back of the house, ditches and drains and holes to the front of the house and the biggest hole ever in the garage!! I think the building inspector made the footings deeper than double!! I thought they were building a swimming pool and were down deeper than 2.5meters. Well let’s just say if the house falls down the extension and garage wont. All this was because of the neighbours leylandii tree that’s in the bottom of his garden near my wall… the cost of this has gone into extra thousands and it’s so depressing. Oh well have to suck it up I will have a great secure floating block and beam floor but no kitchen or bathroom as I can’t afford it!! Ha haha .I will be looking at ways of making money soon and calling on some favours to help with decorating and the garden as the garden budget has been swallowed up in the floor!

Well I now have an extension, roof and skylights and the hole at the front of the house has been connected and all the drainage done for the wet room, which means that soon they will be blocking up at the front garage and then the only access will be through the house, then all the internal walls will be taken down and all knocked through into one big open space. It’s getting exciting now but I am a little worried as how I will cope with things when this happens. I’ve had to pick all the windows for the new extension and discussions with the builders about RSJ steels and acro props to hold up the back of the house while they knock it through. The new kitchen will make such a difference to my safety while doing my tasks, I can’t wait to have a dishwasher back as been washing up for months and find this so hard as can’t actually get up to the sink, have to go sideways and my back is twisted and its really uncomfortable.

Roll on being able to cook and open an oven safely and reach things in the cupboards, no more dropping tins out of wall units that I can’t reach and smashing glasses. Well to be fair I actually had to stand on a step stool to reach things before my accident!!  Maybe I won’t drop and break so much stuff now? I think we are three quarters of the way through now.  The kitchen comes out next week so and offers for tea will be appreciated!  I can see light at the end of the tunnel now.
 
 
 



 

As well as the build starting I’ve been to see a hand surgeon about my carpal tunnel in my wrists, I defiantly need an operation but have been putting it off as am so worried if things go wrong as my hands are so important to me now, I do everything with my arms and hands and if they go out of action I will be snookered. I have managed to get another cortisone injection and this has bought me 3 months grace to get over the build and chaos at home, the last thing I needed was to have to be sleeping downstairs and not being able to drive and transfer as down stairs looks like a bomb has gone off. Once the build is finished I will hopefully have a downstairs toilet I can get in and a shower room, so then I will be able to get the surgery done and not have to worry about being downstairs and not being able to manage. To be honest this has taken over my life at the moment and I am not sure whether the stress of everything has been a bit too much as I have had a lot of bladder problems and infection yet again, this has been a major problem and knocked me down quite a lot. Have had to have time off work and been on antibiotics again and needed to build my stamina up as got quite low. Well things seem to be picking up and slowly getting back to normal and the sun is out and this makes me feel amazing.

 

I’ve also been to the Hospital for an ENT appointment as I’ve mentioned before I suffer with labythritis. I get extremely giddy when lying down, sitting up, and leaning over to pick things up!! This actually has been a problem for quite a while. Sometimes it’s worse than others. The GP said I needed to see an ear, nose and throat (ENT) doctor as it seems like the crystals in my ears had become dislodged and I need to have a procedure called an epley manoeuvre. I looked this up and it seem like mumbo jumbo ha ha ha but when I went to the appointment I was a bit sceptical but once done the initial progress has been great, I’m not half as dizzy as I was so there is some improvement. I have to be followed up and may need it doing again, as it not completely worked.





 

During May I had a week off to attend Badminton Horse trials, I absolutely love this event. Lots of shopping and plenty to eat and drink.. Event Mobility was there for the whole event, making people accessible in venues like this. Just on Saturday alone we rented out 180 wheelchairs and electric scooters. This is absolutely amazing as many families/individuals wouldn’t attend outdoor events if they couldn’t get about. It’s about making special memories with friends and families and having access to get round venues why I love this charity so much. The charity also loan equipment to individuals in need and also organisations such as garden centres and stately homes for use by the general public in the season. They have some great shows coming up in June 2018  with Bramham horse trials 7th-10th in Yorkshire, RAF Cosford airshow 10th June Wolverhampton, Royal Three counties show 15th-17th June Malvern, Labour live, 16th June London, Lincolnshire show 20th-21st June , Blenheim palace flower show 22nd-24th June oxford, Royal Ascot 19th-23rd June and Royal Norfolk show 27th-28th June. Come along to these events knowing your mobility requirements are taken care of. Get in touch with Event mobility on the booking and general enquires number 01386 725391, booking@eventmobilty.org.uk or through the website. eventmobility.org.uk








I have been extremely busy making great progress with my newest sponsor on the leg up for talent program. Neurokinex provides activity based rehabilitation. The Bristol branch is an addition to the gyms in Watford and Gatwick which already specialise in neurological rehabilitation for various forms of paralysis.neurokinex.org

Their vision is to make high quality rehabilitation and wellbeing programs more accessible and inclusive for those living with various forms of paralysis. They make it their responsibility to stay up to date with the latest breakthroughs in neuroscience, by delivering specialist neurological rehabilitation in such a safe, positive and supportive environment can have a profound impact on the quality of life for someone living with paralysis.  Neurokinex provide forms of rehabilitation to conditions such as spinal cord injury, stroke, transverse myelitis and multiple sclerosis.

Activity based rehabilitation has two main goals, to stimulate the whole body to work as one unit again and if possible to re-establish some form of link or pathway between the paralysed and functioning parts and too improve the body’s condition as much as possible to allow the client to be stronger, fitter and more independent. The approach is to target the entire nervous and musculoskeletal systems rather than only the functioning areas of the body. The centres uses a variety of weight-bearing activities, balance, stand training, gait and locomotor training, electrical stimulation, upper and lower body ergometry, vibration therapy and strength training. The benefits of this type of rehabilitation are improving muscle bulk, balance and trunk control, skin and bone health, neurological function, cardiovascular health, strength and stamina, and boosts psychological wellbeing.     

I’ve been attending every Wednesday morning and I absolutely love it, I’ve been training with Matt and 2 students called Jess and Ben, they are so motivational and the cardio and core strength I have built up already is fantastic, I sometimes make a short film for Instagram and Facebook and post pictures as this helps get the information about the program out there. I would really recommend this rehabilitation for anyone who has suffered a spinal injury or has a neurological medical condition. I am hoping to take part in a triathlon in August raising funds for this great centre.

 

While my life continues to be busier than ever in between work and home life I’ve been on Radio Bristol on the John Darvell show, For an interview about my horse riding accident and my life now and ambition to be back in the saddle, I really enjoyed this but I was so worried about swearing in conversation as it was live on air. This has opened up loads of other things and they want to film me at the yard riding for their social media channel. Recently I’ve been to the GWAA (Great Weston air ambulance) again to do an interview for HTV local news to help raise awareness for GWAA 10th year anniversary.https://greatwesternairambulance.com


 As I’ve said before this team are absolute heroes. They have helped save the lives of so many. We are still making plans to organise a spring ball to help raise funds for this amazing charity. I absolutely love this charity they provide a flying A&E department for Bristol, Banes, Gloucestershire, South Gloucestershire, North Somerset and part of Wiltshire. On average they attend 5 incidents every day, and receive no government funding. It costs £3 million every year to keep this charity in the sky, so they need all the fundraising they can get and I hope to be able to give something back for them. Plans are afoot!!! .Stella said that we will be like the Kardashians soon with a fly on the wall documentary, as I have celebrity status!! I wish I could be paid for all these celebrity appearances and have the Kardashian money, as I could do with some extra!! Hahahhhaaa……

Well as we go from May in to June and my health and stamina is improving and also the weather, I still go to my weekly PT sessions with Seona at Frampton Fitness, working 2 days a week for Wellspect health care, I absolutely love this Job and the people I work with are lovely. I am so lucky to have got myself a job with this team. During May we had a party for the royal wedding, thanks Sue for organising that, I attended south glos food and drink show, in which my friend Mark can to with his new business, Pop goes prosecco!! Love this and he’s worked so hard to achieve this. I’ve been away for the weekend with Harry and Stella and we went to Windsor and joined access adventure for water-skiing!!  https://accessadventures.co.uk

Water-skiing was the best ever, we stayed at Heron Lake just of the M25 and the facilities that are set up here were great, all accessible rooms and showering facilities, the kids had an amazing weekend. We also dropped into Windsor castle and did the town, shopping and great Windsor Park. Both Harry and Stella can water ski as we have been to Cotswold Water Park a few times before. I also have enjoyed skiing in the past, but as everything I do no post injury it’s now completely different and a huge challenge. The people who I’ve met this weekend are so positive and great at making you feel at ease and getting you confident at skiing. The whole weekend was a huge achievement and I absolutely loved skiing.









Making new memories with Harry and Stella is so special now and meeting new friends who are so positive and great to have around. I have been catching up with other friends and going out as much as possible as I don’t actually have a kitchen at the moment!! The new kitchen has been delivered and the kitchen fitter is coming next week. I  also can’t wait to get in my garden as this too has been renovated, all ripped out, and raised so everything now is on a level for me to have easy access, Just still waiting for bi fold doors, wet-room to be finished and for things to get back to normal. I had 10 trades’ people in my house this week, and this is enough chaos for me!

I am busy planning training for the triathlon I am doing in August  please go to my link and sponsor me as this is a huge challenge for me http://www.justgiving.com/sallyanne-haigh and am not really looking forward to an operation that I need to have August time too, for my wrists, I have  lots to look forward and this is just the beginning!!

Boom lets do this !!!